Dancing With My Demons

Ever since I was young, I’ve had these troubling voices inside my head. They keep saying I’m not good enough, that I’ll fail, or even that I’d be better off gone. I don’t know where they come from, but they’ve been disturbing my life for as long as I can remember.

I’ve often wondered if these voices stem from the years of bullying I endured or from the negative conversations I encountered online. Honestly, I can’t say for sure. All I know is that these intrusive thoughts have a way of creeping in, especially when I’m on my motorcycle or crossing a bridge. You’ve probably experienced it — that nagging thought urging you to jump off a bridge when you’re crossing it?

For long these feelings are not able to be completely eliminated; they can only be minimized. One of the things that can help minimize these disturbing voices is listening to music.

That’s why I’ve come to love music so much. It’s my refuge, my way of pushing back against the negativity that plagues me. When I listen to music, it helps me drown out those destructive voices and intrusive thoughts. It’s like a shield that protects me from their relentless assault.

In the battle against these inner demons, music has become one of my greatest ally. It lifts my spirits, empowers me, and reminds me that there’s beauty and hope even in the darkest moments. So, whenever those negative voices try to take over, I turn up the volume and let the music guide me towards a brighter, more positive place.

I made a playlist for tough times to manage my mood, and I hope it can help others going through similar situations.

We all fall down
We live somehow
We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger

-Sharp Edges, Linkin Park